Fuck me, this thread needs some sunshine...Why would you keep doing the same thing in your life if it makes you so miserable? I just don`t get that.
You can actually change your life if you want to, there is only one thing keeping you in the position that you do not enjoy and that is physically and mentally...So just fucking do something, life is a gift and it is a pure miracle that you are here at all and to squander that is just disrespectful to those that took the effort to have all those shags that resulted in you...
Just waking in the morning makes me happy, I am alive today and that is a bonus, it means I get to bring happiness into someones life one more day, I might even be able to help someone...I know I will laugh and smile today...I am up against it in a few ways....But I am going to turn those negatives into a positive and I might learn something about life, myself and others whilst I am doing that, everyday is a learning day, life is to be embraced, lived, experienced and not to be thrown away...But if someone chooses to do that, that is OK too, we are all different and to appreciate all those differences is life...No one sits in judgement, nor should they.
Life is precious and it is fleeting, so enjoy the fuck out of it while you have it.